Finished presenting the critique, not really bad respond but down with flu and fever for 3 days …… seriously not funny …… now i’m worried for my academic attendance ……… fml

April and May is indeed a blooming season for hanami super busy schedule …….. i swear to god all work comes in a bulk!!!! estimation of 3 more weeks till Y2 ends ….. and i still have countless of unfinished projects and proposal ……… work side …… shitloads of unforeseen workloads and handful of stupid ignorant customers is enough to keep me busy for a whole month …… freelance side …… not really smooth sailing i should say ……. just turned down a project that i really like just because of super tight schedule for May …… FML

I WANT MY BREAK TO FINISH MY OWN STUFF …….. OWN STUFFFFFFFFFFF ARGH ……..

done ranting ……….. its making me sneeze more and nauseous …… and i want to go watch tokio hotel …….. bye bye free tix

oh …… here’s the poster i did SUPER SUPER last minute for entry for the KBU & wREGA’s World Graphics Day poster design thingy ….. and it got shortlisted *surprise* ……. material sourcing, character folding, photography, lighting, bg material scanning, editing, typography, minor structure aligning ……. thank god i got the ideas all ready so that i can finish everything in less than an hour

a very cliche looking poster i should say …….. but something really me which i love to play with copywriting and typography despite being relatively weak at image making ……

…… i should post more of my artwork …….. for the fun of humiliation

i shall just leave my previous half-done entry remain as draft ………..

presentation done …… i got a lil lucky ……. and i’m still brain dead

one more project to go …….. and i need to start making some sense out of my gathered research for my dissertation ………. doesn’t sound interesting at all

yet to decide when shall i crawl back home for a break ……… well maybe on the bright side think about whats gonna happen on my birthday first? ……… i can confirm that i’m working ……… T^T ………… and broke

praying hard for freelance jobs to work out …… and ……. why must jobs all come in one freaking bunch? and their definition of simple is NOT SIMPLE  AT ALL ……. dammit

Workloads are seriously beyond hellish ……. despite 1 project down there are still tons to go ……

so I was indecisive over project topics of lastminute.com and book cover design and i truthfully named my assignment as THE LASTMINUTE BOOK COVER DESIGN during presentation …….. fail har har

everything turns out just like crap bubbles start developing in between the transparent adhesive and the tint film double spray mount and double sided tape refuse to hold my artwork on the mounting board i end up applying UHU and congratulations …….. it totally stain and blotch the printing …… how genius is that …….. reprinted and i patheticly ran out of materials …… and cash to buy more ……. and also thanks to some “guidance” totally not pointed out on the publisher logo usage error ………

I totally admit the last minute-ness of this project ……. i even lost like more than 10 pages of my brainstorming and tryout on my A3 sketchbook sheets (which i totally need to figure out where the hell they are) that are to be binded which i also did SUPER last minute yesterday ….. god bless my workplace for a moment  …….. painstakingly i manually “die-cut” the printout and nicely aligned them perfectly to the spine  and wrap them like mad and have to produce effing 3 copies ……. was sooooo worried about the wrapping part which i actually have very limited materials ……. thank god it turns out well and nicely wrap …… i bet its because of the paper material i chose as well kinds resin/waxy-ish therefore adhesive doesnt adhere that efficiently and i can adjust around alot …….oh yea ….. the magnet sheet FAIL ….. just because i tested with non laminated paper and i ended up with laminated finishing it refuse to give even the slightest magnetic force ……. *shakes head*

hrmm well i’m actually quite satisfied with the finishing of the mockup books despite the really last minute of EVERYTHING …… i wish Malaysia is more material sufficient …….. like where to print hologram sticker (that was my initial idea okay ….. ) YOU TELL ME!!! ……… well thanks for appreciating my artwork overall …….. don’t you even dare speculate about the production ……. after all the hardwork and years of improving my craft skills ……. despite me being weak at imagemaking and illustration =.=

shall just cut that crap and just improve more to be re-submitted next week …….. how on earth can i struggle through with shitloads od case study to research? As Ms TY reminded me …. “TLH, remember that you are a full time student ” ……. try convincing my conscience for realising i sucked too much of my parents’ money ……. as for going to UK for my final year? i hope i can get an answer before admission deadline ……

*uploaded*

My right big toe is injured ….. AGAIN ……. *clap clap* …….. i think i’ll suffer this problem till the day i die ……. fml

this has been the 2nd time of the same kind of forwarded email i got from mum ……

Hi,
Lets c how sharp u r

A question for the genius, the one who solve the
Problem will write the name in the attached file.

IF
7 + 6 = 113
9 + 1 = 810
5 + 3 = 28
9 + 6 = 315

7 + 2 =?

The answer is the password to open the file
It’s the easiest one and will be done within a minute.

did it without even thinking ……… is this meant for people who failed math or what? …….. if you cant get it? just think logically and simple as a math failure …… and i think this was easier than the last one ……….. the last one needs a formula which i didn’t even follow and actually created my own formula …… and i got it too ……

wasted less than 1 minute of my life on this ………. *pfft*  =.=

thanks to moonchan for listening (reading) and accepting my rants ………

these days have been pretty rough for me ……. alot of time miscalculation, misinterpretation causing misunderstanding, and as for now? i think what i care most is to be condemned as a shallow person …… indirectly or not …… assuming or not …… i can’t seem to don’t care about it now

i am not intelligent, scholarly knowledgeable or even being a master of any sort of talent, i am not confident about the decisions i’ve made either ……. i may seems to be lacking of critical understanding and thoughts towards theory subjects …….. does that make me a shallow person?

自知知明？

for years experiencing the method of teaching/coaching where i was scolded for not doing good enough everytime and gradually it turns into criticism and being condemned as i grew older. Compliments are just once in a blue moon. this is where i learn to just get over it, being stupid so what? being dumb who cares? as long as i’m still happy with more peer-like learning method in future where i could be more appreciated with my opinions and view ……. i felt happy despite struggling for other modules, but why can’t i just enjoy that only miserable one?

i’ve grew just feel like running away every moment i’m criticised or any mistake made, i just felt like running far far away or just bury the whole damn thing where it can be gradually forgotten.

life and learning to live is such a difficult topic comprehend ………… forgive my incoherent-ness, i actually ran out of guts to write any further ……… well i guess no hard feelings is the only solution …… if toleration is the only good trait that i think i’ve got ……. and if this trait is judged just like a box of cereal? …… mine is half gone by now …… and its being snacked fast by monsters ……..