found someone that you wanted to kick her butt SOOOOOOOOOOO hard that she fly to Timbuktu and the information found is like having a rifle positioned at your heart and FIREEEEEEE=.=  ………. god damn it …….. i’m still holding grudge against this idiot here despite getting over the whole crapshit incident ………. and now? everything starts brewing into a pot of mixed feeling ……. AGAIN ………. fuck you god dammit ………. and never EVER show your fuckin face infront of me as you will never know to estimate my level of violence against worthless piece of shit like you ……… but ironically if i found you? …….. i really meant it BEWARE =.=

ok done being mean ……… for the moment

ahhhh theres been a change of plan ………. hrrrrrr …….. won’t be back in KL in July but instead …….. September …….. sufferrrrrr and while people around me has graduated and working (even younger ones graduated) I’m back ……… studying, and approaching the minimum education level set for myself …… 2 years it is to the exact …….. i hope i’ll be experiencing something more PROPER for my second major ……. another 2 years ………. *sigh* I’ll be 25 and hopefully more experienced with some hopeful portfolio building opportunity

my wish list seems to be as long as a never ending toilet roll ……….. it seems that everything is a NEED to me ……… DIM releasing soon …….. having all 3 tracks of D&C ….. should i still get D&C? ……… i need want D&C …. *sigh* and streamyx is a totall pain in the ass and lately ………. hrrrrrrrrrr ……….. everything doesnt seems to load ……… with my limited knowledge attempting to increase speed ……….. nothing helps =.= ……. i end up connecting through modem when everyone is sleeping ………… its a depressing scene …….. >.<”

by random in one effing early morning ……… maxis sent a promotional sms mentiong something like “do you know your brain uses 1 tsp of sugar every hour as fuel to keep active?” ………….. right, very encouraging ……….. so that explains why i need eat loads to keep my brain refreshed while working …….. but still grow fat? explain that T^T” cuz if i use my brain to think of this issue and it require more sugar and i’ll grow fatter ………..

ok the points in this entry are totally not relating to each other ……….

no pics for this time ……… i’m starting to realise i havent been taking pictures lately ……. nothing inspirational ……. and i suddenly crave for french toast ……. so random

ahhhhhh …….. *sips half frozen barley drink* …….. i’ve passed 23 years old by 20 days and now i’m starting to think about questions like am i really 23? ……. or like what should a 23 yrs old do? …….. right ….. thinking of these is better than just zoning out watching nonsense on youtube ……. really nonsense …… REALLY REALLY nonsense …. *koff*

so relating back to my age ……… what does a 23 yrs old should be doing by now? ……. still studying? (like me but half zoning out) …….. married and have own family? …….. work and earning bucks? ……… maybe in progress of experiencing life (as if i’m not?) ………. i do thought myself being an abnormal 23 yrs old …….. unlike my few 23 yrs old friends or even my highschool mates …… most of them are in their final year in Uni, majority having their other half or maybe looking out for suitable ones, hang out with their own college/uni mates or friends often for yum-cha sessions movies shopping karaoke and planned trip ……… majority of them are having similar lifestyle just like that ……. hmmmm even working ones ….. everyone is socializing!! SOCIALIZINGGGGG!!

as for me ……. i’m 23 …… i considered myself quite a 23, ok look wise older (cuz i’m an owl) …….. i live like an otaku …… no shit i mean it ……. talking about all the activities that a 23 yrs old should have  ……. i do go for movies according to my liking and mood and 90 out of 100 times is alone and if i go for a movie with someone its most likely sister, mum, moonchan, shuchan, mishy pooper or bailahchan …. maybe we have similar taste in movies and they are the only few that understands the situation of me cracking up during scary and gory scenes ……. yumcha? maybe i do date 3 of the names listed above often when i’m in KL and once in a blue moon gather around with the “KL gang”  but its like DAMN RARE and its not even YUMCHA and gossips ……. its meals and life updating

and things just start getting worst —- karaoke ……. i DON’T karaoke like seriously ……. the ONLY time i karaoke-ed was noraebang and its for a shooting ……oh ya theres once during highschool where i had no choice but to join to kill time and i paid the bill while all i did was sitting in one corner of the dark room like a spirit without even touching the mic nor the song selector ………. so yeah …… i don’t like karaoke ….. of all sort

outdoor activities ……….. URGH just don’t like it ………. so plans like going for a hike, going to the beach or pool for a swim or jungle tracking ……… ok seriously? i’ve seen enough of forest for the past 23 yrs of my life ……… and my training days do consist of interacting with the both elements …….. not sick of it but just ENOUGH of it ……. if i were to go for a swim? i REALLY MEANT swimming the work out kind not …. relaxing dipping in the water in a bikini …….. as for the forest tracking thing? ………. seriously? …….. NO …… maybe the only hope and excuse to make me go is crystal clear stream ……. i only like that  ……….. don’t even mention planned trip ………. i’m a diva traveler who love to travel alone and enough said ……..

so as a summary of situation mentioned above and other untold ones …….. i do live without having to socialize alot …….. as of all the i-don’t-fancy-going-out habit ……… i guess its because of parental control till I’m 17? and i somehow got used to all the not-going-out thing ……. and i’ve learnt to be alone throughout the time too …… so seeking help on school work and stuff in friends house is almost forbidden ………. and most important reason of why i’m doubting that I’m living like a 23 yrs old is that ………. life experience for me is like a fast forwarded video and at some point rewind and played back at the correct point of age ………. and well that makes me unable to posses the youngheart like everyone being a normal 23 yrs old

but as a fightback proving i am 23 ……….. i do dress & styled in a combination of young and not so young , t-shirt and all with heels ……… i do shop appropriately and i am materialistic too ……. i am tech savvy and dies without the internet and i am serious and being real about my knowledge and abilities ……..

maybe its not up to one to judge how a 23 yrs old should be doing now and there isn’t a compulsory list of things that you MUST do when you are 23 either? i don’t meant to be hypocritical on judging myself and all other 86-ers, its just majority vs me …….. score? (reminds me of Berna) i don’t intend to wish being younger neither do i wish being older either, i just want to be 23 ….. and i despises being commented childish or immature and mind you ……… being able to think through too much doesnt prove yourself being mature too, just watch out on your childish tail being bared …..

やっぱり　life is difficult  。。。　& being 23歳 too  。。。just live at your comfort pace

back 2 weeks when i’m in KL …… i got a call to try on a project …… well i accepted it and was given 2 weeks to complete the sketching phase for approval ……… the 2 weeks is spend in a really irregular feat ……. spent first few days zoning out showing no interest in severely drifted mind of my partially dysfunctional family ……. as a proceed on the design ……. there goes my tummy lurching in disagreement on confidence ……. i some how cant work in the morning …….. I’ve no idea why …… but as midnight approaches i’m full speed ahead drawing till 6am in the morning and off i go smack on my bed and snore ahead …… so as a result after 2 weeks (which ended yesterday) …… wanted to come up with digital drawing but it failed cuz reichan decided to DIE after 1 week with random pink screen and tonz of  locking ….. great ….. got it stripped totally and have its motherboard changed and its alive again 2 days before deadline …… bravo…… so in the end i’ve came up with 3 designs and i have no comment on it ………. rolled up, stuff it in a tube, sealed the ends and courier it down to KL ……… so ……… back to zoning out as time passes

ok maybe some random picture for the sake of posting pictures? ……..

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bought this in shojikiya ……..&…………. drank this in Japan and became my instant fav drink and the one on the left is not even 10% as nice as my fav ……….. no money back guarantee *snort*

loved my Jphone SH-01A as i got jealous over a SH-03A joined the family 2 weeks ago ……… それ本当嫌うです　＞。＜”

finished watching meichan no shitsuji thanks to shuchan (*hugs*) and mishypooper for bellowing on msn asking me to watch …….. loved the story line and can’t help it but laugh like mad over Osamusan (nodame) and Nubuosan (hana kimi) ’s character difference ………. cringe over Hirosan’s greasiness & yasashiness as an S-class butler and keep telling shuchan how he looks like MatsuJun in meichan but NOT IN MR BRAIN OMFG TOTALLY TAKE BACK WHAT I’VE COMPLIMENTED ……….. don’t like meichan actress …….. and i think Aoyama is cute

i totally marathon-ed meichan in one day and totally watched without skipping and even reply on nice scenes ……. now ….. moving on to kami no shizuku ….. all cuz of Kamechan ….. thanks to shuchan again ….. will wait till Mr.BRAIN ends and I’ll watch it in a go ….. totally amused by random appearance of Gackt, Hideochan and Kamechan in the past 3 epi of Mr.BRAIN ….. hail Kimu Taku …… and  waves goodbye to korean drama as i need more sarcastic comical scenes than spending my precious zoning out time watching ppl crying buckets ……. and ENOUGH to emoness ….wtf

Yet another gloomy post …… sigh ……. i hope the next one will be a lil more cheerful?

need more nice comical summer J-dorama …….

nothing major to write on actually ……….. life is boring ………. like watching a snail crawl 100cm …….. had a saved entry on a topic i found interesting actually but i gave up continuing the article 3/4 cuz i sorta ran out of words that sounds right hahahaha …….. i should gag myself with triple lecithin …….. or is there anymore higher concentration?? …. huk ….. will recycle that post ….. one day hahaha

well was down in KL last week nearly forgetting my birthday of cuz ….. cuz was nervadjfnlaskdfjas up preparing for college interview ……  everything went well and yay for myself  i’m spending another two years locked up in college …… who cares? i aim to be multi disciplined designer anyway? ……. so if everything went well? ……… i’ll graduate at the age of 25 ……. screw form 6 =.= ……… screw chemistry …….. hope i could do my final year in UK …… *crosses finger*

anyway …… lesson learnt ……. NEVER EVER EVERRRRRRRRRRRR only bring a huge leather+canvas bag filled with crap and kill time in the mall ……… BIG MISTAKE ……….. felt that i got 2 cm shorter cuz of that =.= ……… but well …….. it was quality time that i manage to meet almost everyone and the dinner with ALMOST everyone was fun  …….. damn i miss the food =.= …….. i swear to god the moment i board on the coac i would kill myself for another round of these god damn delicious br0wn round thing =.= ……… damn you