its a family tradition that we support team brazil ….. dad use to tell stories about how he broke his leg in a football match after i’m born and how he would wake up in the middle of the night feeding me and watch the world cup while mum snores away ……. I started watching football since i don’t know when ……… ok i think was since eric cantona played for MU and i start watching world cup CRAZILY was 94 world cup ….. suffer like mad …… those were the days without astro and time difference is crazy


while watching the match had this conversation with dad about football ……… I use to enjoy watching team brazil playing football ….. its entertainment on the field …… the teamwork, the state of the art passing and dribbling is simply magic lol ……. but football today? it has lost the gist of the pride they play for their country ……….. everything is so commercial now …… sad …….my personal observation ……. i don’t really see strong teamwork in football nowadays …….. its all about outshining each other to increase personal transfer fee value

What game is the FAIREST game ever? ….. none ….. referee and lines man has been screwing up games in world cup/football today more than anything else ….. look at lampard’s goal …….. argentina’s mudda effin obvious offside …….. fabiano’s handball ……. even today the match between netherlands and brazil …… 3 asian officer for a latin and european match??? you kidding me? the frequent whistle ….. its freaking annoying ……. Bommel should’ve gotten like 2-3 red cards with his dirty fouls ….. and refree dude you actually pull out the redcard BY MISTAKE when you intend to give yellow card and you actually KEEP THE RED CARD??!!!! you sure you fifa certified?

well brazil got kicked out in the quarters by the holland potatoes today *sad* …… it was a sloppy 2nd half after a mistake after another brazil totally lost their concentration everything was rubbish …….

strongly believes that the kit they’re wearing plays a big role on their winning luck …….. the seleção in their blue kit today? *shrugs* bad omen ………. erhem partly got this hypothesis from Manchester United cuz whenever they wears their away kit? (especially the black one) their winning statistic? 10/100 HAH ……..

ok bad headache …… and heartache T.T …….. i predict Germany taking the cup … end of discussion

I would rather have a dramatic break-up with a boyfriend (like i have any?) …. ok realistic …. hrmm i would rather not shopping for 3 months than not having live updates on World Cup … especially Brazil ……. family tradition …. I’m a world cup baby you see ….. しょがない

anyway ……. i’m devastated that I’ve NO ASTRO NOW, moons place HAVE NO SPORTS CHANNEL, and IT’S TOO LATE FOR MAMAK NOW ……… life sux ….. SUXXXXX

as of now? i can only rely on a-few-minutes-late illegal stuff and (i think) a-few-seconds-slower live match cast from fifa …. isn’t that wonderful? *snort*

I’m desperate here you can see ….. thank god I’m heading home soon T^T ….. hang on there Brazil ….. hang on …. heh I’m watching out for Spain too ….. hmmmm ….. LIFE SUXXXXXXXX ARGH

come on Brazil ….. COME ON you have 45minutes of 2nd half left!!!!!! ……. hrmm i’m suprised how short 1st half injury time was ……

—– update —-

I’ve just spent the WORST 90 minutes of my life (exclude halftime and injury time) ….. no live telecast is HORRIBLE …… never felt so horrible EVER ….. I sms-ed my dad knowing my family is awake and WATCHING LIVE AND HD ON ASTRO FUCKIN BYOND ….. niama …… and whined the last 15mintes how horrible my life is at that moment with my sis (happy birthday btw) screaming into my ear telling me PRK scored on the 89th minute …… heh ……. 2-1 ……. close call brazil …. and HELL i’m so planting my ass in the restaurant downstairs on the 20th …… ish …… why must your match be on 2.30am GMT+8:00 ????!!!!

haillll Maicon’s banana kick ……

k …… nites

Humans can be SOOOOOO UNREASONABLE, SOOOOO IGNORANT, SOOOOOOOOOO SELFISH …… arghhhh

trying to pick on me? taking advantage that I’m your friend’s friend’s friend …. ARGH …… YOU CHEAPSKATE SOAB ……. CHEAPSKATEEEEEEEEEE TO THE MAX ……. the next email will be take it or leave it ….. you still have to pay me you fucktard

YOU SOAB ……. YOU BEWARE ….. DARE TO NOT PAY ME?!! I’LL SHOW YOU WHOS THE MONSTER!!

threshold point of anger is higher than i thought =.= FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!

i shall just leave my previous half-done entry remain as draft ………..

presentation done …… i got a lil lucky ……. and i’m still brain dead

one more project to go …….. and i need to start making some sense out of my gathered research for my dissertation ………. doesn’t sound interesting at all

yet to decide when shall i crawl back home for a break ……… well maybe on the bright side think about whats gonna happen on my birthday first? ……… i can confirm that i’m working ……… T^T ………… and broke

praying hard for freelance jobs to work out …… and ……. why must jobs all come in one freaking bunch? and their definition of simple is NOT SIMPLE  AT ALL ……. dammit

thanks to moonchan for listening (reading) and accepting my rants ………

these days have been pretty rough for me ……. alot of time miscalculation, misinterpretation causing misunderstanding, and as for now? i think what i care most is to be condemned as a shallow person …… indirectly or not …… assuming or not …… i can’t seem to don’t care about it now

i am not intelligent, scholarly knowledgeable or even being a master of any sort of talent, i am not confident about the decisions i’ve made either ……. i may seems to be lacking of critical understanding and thoughts towards theory subjects …….. does that make me a shallow person?

自知知明？

for years experiencing the method of teaching/coaching where i was scolded for not doing good enough everytime and gradually it turns into criticism and being condemned as i grew older. Compliments are just once in a blue moon. this is where i learn to just get over it, being stupid so what? being dumb who cares? as long as i’m still happy with more peer-like learning method in future where i could be more appreciated with my opinions and view ……. i felt happy despite struggling for other modules, but why can’t i just enjoy that only miserable one?

i’ve grew just feel like running away every moment i’m criticised or any mistake made, i just felt like running far far away or just bury the whole damn thing where it can be gradually forgotten.

life and learning to live is such a difficult topic comprehend ………… forgive my incoherent-ness, i actually ran out of guts to write any further ……… well i guess no hard feelings is the only solution …… if toleration is the only good trait that i think i’ve got ……. and if this trait is judged just like a box of cereal? …… mine is half gone by now …… and its being snacked fast by monsters ……..

i felt like being lenient to myself and be a little ignorant ……. it is always being magnified as a huge annoyance to others …….

will others think about this to themselves?

it is difficult to have lived because of people …….. and it is also difficult to try living for ourselves

========= end of emo-ness =========

i think its time to have a change on this blog theme …….. i will do after i finish my obligations …….

i’m not the typical obedient student that lecturer would like ……… i use my time to the max and i have better things to achieve and explore  ….. that focus 100% on my studies

that sounds like a good excuse for skipping class eh? i can write that in future letters ehehehe ……….. but well i should quit the habit of doing my work till wee hours ( i really meant till 5-6am) and attempt to catch a quick nap and flee to class ……. i’ve grown older and i can’t seem to wake up in time anymore …….. hrrrrr

boooooook cover designnnnnn argh …… lots of skectches yet to be refined for selections …….. i need to hunt for old hard cover book to work some miracles ……… whatever the heck ……… I CANT WAIT TILL Y2 ENDSSSSS ……… god dammit

as i mentioned earlier ….. or have i not? ….. yea i have this weird intolerance towards alliums …. neh RAW onions, RAW shallots, RAW garlic, leek and spring onions (scallion) …….. so i tried avoiding these stuff as much as i can but heck i was born and fed Malaysia fusioned Chinese food ……. well i just have to accept my fate eh? …..　しょがないでしょ。。。。

so ……. RAW onions is a big nono …. well if you get rid of the chemical thingy by cooking it its fine …… it only gives minor effect ……. i tend add garlic in everything i cook …… no garlic is so not ……. my grandma’s style of cooking ……… so anyway garlic …….. cook or not it still affect me but depending on the amount i consume ……… my WORST nightmare is spring onions …….. holy shit its totallty a killer …….. worst part is i’m an avid soup lover ……… and every soupy dish ala malaysian or chinese is garnished with spring onions ………. kill me …….. despite me stressing it NO SPRING ONIONS during every order ………. it will still come with a bowl full of it T^T ….. fml ….. i will have to end up wasting my time and straining my eyes showcasing my chopstick skills picking up every single bits of spring onions …….. not joking …… even small tiny bit is like sending a molotov cocktail into my digestive system ………

anyway yesterday I went to Pho Hoa to grab my dinner …….. as usual stressing during ordering ……. NO SPRING ONIONS ……. twice ……. i ended up with a bowl of pho ……. extra spring onion =.= …… OH FUCK MY LIFE ……. worst still there are alot of diced super tiny bits of spring onion!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH ……… i tried my very best to to pick up every single bit and even have to sacrifice the coriander cuz the spring onions are like sticking to the coriander leaves ……. fml ……. dude its my dinner lor ….. i’m freaking hungry and why must you do this to me T^T …… so i ended up unable to pick out every single bits and start whacking the pho …… big mistake ……. after dinner i had the worst 12 hours ever ………. everything went wrong for me ……. tummy bloat like I’m preggers, nausea, tummy cramps, diarrhea and my mouth smells like crap ……… fml seriously fml ………i felt like being murdered

so i wasn’t joking or making excuses just because i hate spring onions and other alium stuff ……. i don’t hate them and i don’t like them either …….. i’m just the kind that will just whack whatever that is food ……. i actually read up some articles where there are indeed some poor souls like me out there being alium intolerance and some even more serious allergy ……. well the point is …… majority of them is westerners ……… they don’t normally get creamy soup, noodle soup, broth or stew garnished with spring onions ……… well too bad for them is onions is one of the main cooking ingredients for their kind of cuisine ……. but onions doesn’t seems to be much of a problem as its normally okay after its cooked ………. I am an asian …… where practically everything is garnished with spring onions ……….. fml ………. please don’t ever let me see any pasta ala Malaysia with spring onions as garnishing …… i’ll scream ………

well …… accept the weird fact that i’m allium intolerance or not …….. please understand us people with this kind of weirdness …… well eventough we are normally being replied that its just some psychological matter or being diagnosed IBS …….. go die la

hrmm ……. this is actuallyt he first time i’m blogging using bommie

霉过一块梅菜 ……

back to reality since yesterday but let me update what happened TODAY ….

woke up to go class.

fever.

left room, door slam, door lock, key inside.

phone sos, sos in a jam and can only come back AT NIGHT!!!!

wait like a donkey and try to pry the  door with swiss army knife (damn smart) and gave myself a 1 cm deep cut on my right thumb with some portion of the nail detached.

sos no.2 HAPPEN TO COME HOME!!! but useless sos no.2 don’t  have my room key.

still fever.

got GATE key from sos no.2 and went out to finish some assignment stuff and see the doctor.

got home and thank god i do observe how my dad changes our room lock and  manage to detach and ruin the whole locks.

wasted money get a new lockset and be locksmith for the day and install it.

the spoiled lockset HAVE A FUCKIN TIGHT RUINED SCREW WITH NO MARK FOR ME TO UNSCREW IT ARGHHHH.

struggle through and installed the lockset.

wound on the thumb hurt like mad.

fml to the max i should say ……….. assignment NOT DONE ……. you see …… i’ll die ……. year of the tiger …… PTUI!!!!

to still ignore my project 4 when due date is next thursday ……. minus all the prayers going back to work ………. 4 more days to the exact ……. HOW LAAAAAAAAAAAA ……….. and i’ve yet to think and research on my dissertation topic ………..D….E…..D ….. DEAD …… quote Hardison

handed up my essay and i thought there would be atleast a day break ………. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ………. next assignment started and due 2nd Feb and I’m only back in KL on 1st Feb close to midnight T^T ohhhhh fuck my life seriously ……. firefly you better not delay or cancel flight…….. i’ll scream my heads off

I NEED A BREAK LA WEH  BREAKKKKK T^T fml

………. =.=